Sunday, November 8, 2009

It's at hours like this that you realize your life will never be the same. You wake up, can't go back to sleep because all you can do is think of your child that will never be here with you on earth ever again. You will never hear her laugh, never get a kiss or a hug, never have an argument. Then your eyes fill with tears and the "why" starts coming in your head. And why can't you have just one dream of her saying to you that she is ok. I have had other dreams but never this one telling me not to worry and that things are good. In other dreams she may be off to the side but I am very aware she is dead and the word dead has been said. I just want God to allow me to have one dream telling me she is with him and doing just fine or for Him to allow her in my dreams and reassure me that she is happy and doing well. I miss her so much!
You two also are in my prayers. One persons struggles, pains and needs are no greater than anothers. The two of you are facing difficulties that need the prayers of others also. It has been a blessing to me to have met you and to have continued our communication. You are a dear person and your husband must be an earth angel from what you have said about him!

Saturday, November 7, 2009

I am new to this and don't know quite where to begin or what to write........I lost my daughter 6 and 1/2 years ago at home at 2:20 am unexpectedly from an aortic dissection. Two weeks ago would have been her 30th birthday. It hurts just as much today as it did 6 1/2 years ago. I have come to accept the extreme sadness will always be here on anniversaries. There is no escaping or avoiding it.