Tears, tears and more tears

Dear Adrienne,

It never fails. I open this blog and the tears flow. They flow in the house too but almost always when I come to this. There are so many things I want to share with you but you aren't here for me to share them with and I don't think this is something I will EVER get used to. I really do look forward to the day we will be reunited in Heaven and we can hug and kiss and go off together and catch up on all of your new things you have been doing because I have a funny feeling you always know what mom is up to, my thoughts, my ups and downs. I want to hear about your new wonderful life and what you have been doing. I have prayed and prayed that God will allow me to have a dream where I see you and you can tell me that you are ok and happy. I really need to know this for some strange reason. Maybe just to bring me some peace.

I have attached a new picture of me and the boys for you to see how grown up they are. Nick is getting ready to start UT Austin.

Almost no one talks about you but me. That makes me sad. Is it because they are afraid of upsetting me or because my worst fear has come ...... that you are slowly being forgotten. Of course being your mother is different but I don't know how anyone who knew you could forget you. I wish I could dedicate something to you but I think what it be. It is so important to me that your memory lives on. Some day I will figure out what that will be. The Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow plants that I gave to St. Thomas, Aunt Audrey, mom, Brent and me.....I think the only one that is around is Aunt Audrey's and it is gorgeous!

I love and miss you as much today as April 2, 2003. Take care.

Love,

Mom

Update on Bella, Gigi and Parker

Dear Adrienne,

Look at Bella (Isabella), Gerry and of course we can't forget Parker. Isabella turned 7 on April 2. In the past 7 years she has become my beautiful fun earth angel for Lexie and Morgan to enjoy when they come spend their 7 to 10 days here each summer. They are both sweet children but Isabella will always have that special place in my heart since God sent her to us late in the afternoon at the same hospital where He had taken you during the early morning hours. God does wonderful things and this was one of them for me personally especially since she was not due until the following week by ceserean. God gave us all something to smile about during our time of pain. Thank you God! We all miss you Adrienne but are very greatful to God for the joy also given to us 7 years ago.

I love and miss you so much but one day will be with you again.

Mom