Dear Adrienne,
It never fails. I open this blog and the tears flow. They flow in the house too but almost always when I come to this. There are so many things I want to share with you but you aren't here for me to share them with and I don't think this is something I will EVER get used to. I really do look forward to the day we will be reunited in Heaven and we can hug and kiss and go off together and catch up on all of your new things you have been doing because I have a funny feeling you always know what mom is up to, my thoughts, my ups and downs. I want to hear about your new wonderful life and what you have been doing. I have prayed and prayed that God will allow me to have a dream where I see you and you can tell me that you are ok and happy. I really need to know this for some strange reason. Maybe just to bring me some peace.
I have attached a new picture of me and the boys for you to see how grown up they are. Nick is getting ready to start UT Austin.
Almost no one talks about you but me. That makes me sad. Is it because they are afraid of upsetting me or because my worst fear has come ...... that you are slowly being forgotten. Of course being your mother is different but I don't know how anyone who knew you could forget you. I wish I could dedicate something to you but I think what it be. It is so important to me that your memory lives on. Some day I will figure out what that will be. The Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow plants that I gave to St. Thomas, Aunt Audrey, mom, Brent and me.....I think the only one that is around is Aunt Audrey's and it is gorgeous!
I love and miss you as much today as April 2, 2003. Take care.
Love,
Mom
Dearest Adrienne, I know first hand how much your mum misses you. I get to know you through her memories and it's a privlage to get to know you more and more each time we speak. You were a blessing to her in your earthly life and I am sure your sitting in front of the gates impatiently waiting for her to arrive one day when she is called. Until then, If you don't mind, I think I'll just enjoy the stories. Say hello to mine who have gone before me and sit tight for one day we shall all meet!!
ReplyDeleteKak, love and hugs by the pounds!!
Tazzy